So I do not know how to start this post! Actually do u remember the fight I had with Malik the little boy =) at that time he said something like be simple like yanal and s3d! No offence but I can not be that low man (bahhha this is I.M back again am just I.Ming on you guys!) Actually yea! I should be just like them!
Ok here is the story! I have some problems! Actually I just keep thinking about future! And when this future is too close I just feel very very very bad! Why? Actually I had this strict plan for my future! And actually stupidly enough I want it to be what I want! Just the same! So that what happened at tawjihi! At the end I was very confused! And I remember when we once went to eat from 3bood at the final exams; me, malik, yanal, s3d and haitham went to set in dwar elmadena! I said something about why I was waiting that much for tawjihi to end! The university will be just the same as the school!
I was overloading my self with thinking about future! So I made many stupid mistakes! I tried too many times to avoid my friends! So am sorry guys about the email I sent long time ago! But this is not the subject! Now that next semester am graduating 2nsha2 Allah! I did the same thing! It all started a year ago! I started to draw my future step by step! Each time I discovered that one of those steps will fail I would feel too bad for a couple of weeks! Then I proceed with another plan! The same thing happened to 7 plans! That was tiring! Man I just wake up to find my soul has aged way beyond my real age! To feel so tired and that a mountain is laying on my shoulders!
It happened that a little time ago one of my fellows (S3d actually) said something to me! It was like when Allah sent the crow for habeel when he killed his brother. I will not say it! So just like tawjihi! I will 2nsha2 Allah graduate with out any imagining my future! And actually I have changed my schedule for next semester to live my last semester and enjoy it as much as possible! (btw yanal Wednesdays will be brakes on my new schedule 2nsha2 Allah :p).
Actually one day I did not exist! I was nothing! Allah created me! So why am I so worried????